A Fresh Start. Ch.18

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I sat there on the tree, looked at my wriste, and at my watch , it was 9 pm. My mom must be worried now. I said 10 mins then ill go find a cab.

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I was now in the cab, it took me 15 mins to find the way but it was worth it.


I told him to take me home, i reached home in 10 mins! I ran up knocked the door, mom opened she looked angry, but i was afraid, i needed her hugs, whenever i hugged my mom i'd cry i dont know why.


I hugged her so tight and cried, cried, cried, cried, which seemed for forever. I let go kissed her head, ran to my room, put my phone to charge, got naked, and went to the shower with my towel, i had mascara on, but i guessed it went with all the sweat and cries today. I put the water on cold, got my sponge put on it a whole lots of body wash, and started rubbing my neck, remembering James, how he used to act with me and how he acted made me cry. I used all the power in my body and rubbed my body, fully, i wanted to feel clean, i kept crying. After 20 mins i got out of the shower, looked at mirror.



I started crying, i closed my eyes, remembered everything. I thought, why did he do this? Thank God he didnt rape me. I then ran to my room, wore my pjamas opened my phone. I re-read James' and my chats. Tears filled my eyes. I then pressed on Delete...


Now i am looking at my screen that said:-


Delete James B-) ?


Yes or No


I scrolled to Yes. When i got a BBm from him...


James: Let me explain. Please.


I then, quickly pressed on Delete/Yes. And now he is out of my life. Hopefully forever.


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I sat in bed, looked at the pink clock on my bedside table it said 11:10 i grabbed my laptop, i uploaded all the pics i had on my camera days ago, i wanted to see them again....


I saw Tala & James & I pics, of us in the bus. I gazed in the picture, remembering that day, and started crying. So hardly, tears didnt stop! I pressed on next, kept looking at the pics, every pics comes up id cry. When this picture came which made me die and cry and everything.

It was a picture of me and James hugging, i guessed Tala took it, i cried sooooo much. I couldnt handle it anymore. I closed the laptop, opened my phone on shuffle the song "I Miss You by Miley Cyrus" started playing.


Too old ha? Old music is the best. I started crying, i closed my eyes, and everything started playing in my head. I wondered what kind of smoke did i enhale, but weirdly, i wanted it again. I got up, went to the kitchen, got Baskin Robins' ice cream, a spoon, a couple of chocolate bars of the table and went back to my room. I ate and cried, ate and cried.




What if questions started in my head..

What if i got rapped?

What if they killed me?

What if they did something to me while i was asleep/fainted?


I wanted to shut these questions, i put my phone off, i threw the tissues and the box of tissues on the ground, the empty box of icecream on the ground, the wrappers of chocolates. Covered myself and slept, with tears all over my pillow.


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The next day, my clock alarmed, i just held it, removed the batteries, and threw it next to all the junk...


Mom: Amal wsh fee?! Esh hal 3'urfa?! Yalla goomy 3ndk madrsa... *she yelled*



Amal: Mama, leave me alone please, mabaroo7 elyoum.


Mom; Goomy.


Amal: Dont force me to go, cause i wont leave me alone please


Mom: Ok, bagool 7ag obook , hw ytkalam ma3ak ana maly sh3'l *leaving out of my room*


i got op closed the door , LOCKED IT *


and went back too sleep.


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After a while i woke up, i opened my phone , the clock said : 3:00 PM. My body felt tired, i know i needed the rest, i got up. I had a master room, my bathroom was in my room. I went washed up. Putting my hair in a high ponytail, my face looked yellow, i felt sick, i threw up in the sink.


I came out, started picking up the trash and putting it in a bag, i did my bed, put my batteries in the clock.

I unlocked my room, went to the kitchen, threw the trash, saw my mom sleeping on the sofa, i got her a blanket covered her. Wrote this on a paper:

Im going to the supermarket, ill be back soon <3

Love you!

Amal.

Put it on the table next to her, i grabbed my cross bag, and my phone and ran out, i wore a training suit, addidas shoes, plugged my headphones and started running. I didnt feel like talking to any one.


I went and sat on a bench that was in park, i opened twitter, checked James's profile...


I didnt mean it im sorry. If you just let me explain....


I opened bbm i had a request from James. I left it. I scrolled to some chats, but didnt open any.

Then started running again, went to the grocery store, got gum and went out. The grocery store was just an excuse to go running.


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Home!

I ran to my room, did the same routine as yesturday, till i slept.