Who Am I? Ch.6

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The next day, i was very sick. My back hurt so badly, i had a very bad headache, stuffy nose, my throat was about to kill me any second, and i was hot. I didnt feel alright at all.


When im sick i love crying, cause it makes me release the mixed signals in me. Makes sense? I know it doesnt, but thats just how i am.


So i was sitting in bed, coughing and crying. I couldnt sleep all night. At 2 am my mother came and gave me a medicine, i felt better a bit, i had an hour of sleep, then i had to wake up cause i need to throw up :). I ran to the bathroom about a zillion time to throw up.


Every time i'd put something in my mouth i'd throw it up directly. I felt so tired, hungry and well, angry. What did i do to get sick? ;/ !! Uff el7amdellah 3ala kl 7al.


I had school but i was absent, it was a Saturday which means Frank has no school, since its weekend.


I got out of bed, wearing my long, comfy robe and under it boxers and a big sized shirt. My hair was in a high messy bun, my face was pale as the sun, and my eyes were red cause i didnt sleep.


I went down to the kitchen wanting to take my medicine. I took a bite of an apple , then ran to the bathroom and threw up.

Mesh3al was at home too, his university gave them a vacation.


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Mesh3al: Clara are you okay?



Clara: *cough* Eee *cough*


Mesh3al: Lets go , we are going to the hospital ! *he demanded*


I HATE HOSPITALS!!


Clara: La la im good <3



I went to my room and dialed Frank's number...


Deeet

Deeeet


...: Hello !



It was a girl's voice..



Clara: Can i talk to Frank?



Girl: Ohh are you Clara?



Clara: Yep, who are you ?



Girl: Its me ! Frank's cousin!! He was helping me in my project, he just went to the bathroom , ill call him!


FRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAANK <Frank's cousin called him.



Frank: hey baby <3


I love it when he calls me baby, i melt <3.



I miss his voice<3


I miss his touch<3


I miss his smell<3


I miss his hugs<3


I miss him<3<3<3!


I teared up a bit since i get over sad when im sick and cause i miss him.



I then colapsed and started crying like a little baby <3


I miss him<3, when i was sick and i was in America, he'd taek extra care of me<3, he used to feed me, then make me take my medicines i miss him<3



We talked for hours, then i went to check on Mesh3al...




Mesh3al: Bas baby magdar..


Mesh3al: Madri, hathy e5ty a5af!


Mesh3al: Danoo inty t3rfeen gad aish a7bk bs haday <3


UGHHH! DANA!:)


I dont want to know, i just walked away..


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I sat in the sitting room waiting for my parents to come back from work..


1 hour later my parents come..



Clara: Heey mom nd dad <3


Both: Hello Clara.


They looked so tired, they looked devastated, they looked pale. I dont know what was up but i was worried..



Clara: Mom are you guys okay?


Dad: Eee, Mesh3al come we want to talk to both of you..



Mesh3al comes..


Parents: We need to talk.

Who Am I? Ch.5

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I am so sorry that i didnt post a chapter for a week i think, but i swear you dont know how busy i was. I traveled and couldnt take my laptop, i needed a break from the laptop. You dont know how many projects, speeches, and questions ive solved on this thing. Gosh, and now im acctually doing my Chemistry, Computer and Englosh project which is due first day i come back from this "vacation".


I wanted to post since i promised one of my friends on Twitter ill post today, even though i had to lie and say im studying , well, its not a complete lie , i am multitasking :c.


Anyways, i dont want to make this so long .. enjoy the chapter <3


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Wow. Im such an idiot. Why did i tell Abdallah i had a boyfriend? Omg. God take me.


I closed my eyes for 30 seconds then opened them and saw Abdallah standing infront of me, with his face emotionless.



Clara: Abdallah, i dont want anyone to know about this.


Abdallah: I wont, but who is he?


Clara: Someone, forget that i even told you, i dont want anyone to know about all this.


I ran out of class and went to my second class. I was so worried, i was so lost, i couldnt think straight. I didnt want anyone to know, since my cousins are with me in the school, i dont want them to know and come tell my parents, i really didnt want them to come add up lies, since they already hate me.


I went to my class, with the books of my other class :)!



Teacher: Clara, honey, we have English now not Math, please go get the right books.



Class: *giggles*



I left the room, got my books and went back to class, there was no empty seat other than a seat next to a boy called Kareem. He was Saudi too. He always made fun of me , i had no idea why. I sat down, and realized next to Kareem sat Abdallah :)! Yaay me!



I didnt feel like laughing, but i had to fake it.


All of a sudden ...


Kareem: Clara , are you okay? :)


WOW! Today is such a weird day, he's asking ME if im okay?!

Clara: Yeah i am thankyou!

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Finally the day was over, i ran out, and saw Mesh3al's car outside. He was standing there giving me his back, it showed that he was talking to someone but i couldnt see who since i was very far, as i came closer, i could hear them talk... but still he couldnt see me.



Someone: Mesho , i love you, i really do.

It was a girl's voice, it was very familiar.


Mesh3al: I love you way more baby.


Baby? Yuck!


Girl: But what will we do about Clara ?


CLARA?!


Mesh3al: Ill talk to her soon baby dont worry <3.



I then walked slowly to them, i really wanted to know who the girl is. I came closer and saw

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Dana.


Dana saw me , and she got so red. Mesh3al was nervous it showed.



Clara: Oh, hi Dana, how come you know my brother?


Dana: Oh, ahh, this is your brother? I never knew, i just came to ask for........ *she looked lost and wanting to search for an excuse*


Mesh3al: TISSUES.



Clara: Heheh, okay did you take some?


Dana: SOme what?



Clara: Tissue *i laughed at the way she was shy and nervous*



Mesh3al: Lets go Clara.


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We stopped infront of the house. I didnt tell Mesh3al that i heard him, i wanted him to come tell me.

So i went to my room, showered then drifted to sleep <3.


 

Who Am I ?Ch.4

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I woke up the next day with a great smile on my face. I love waking up in the room that is in Riyadh. I don’t know why but its so comfy and cozy. I never felt this way when I woke up back in America. Anyways, I gazed a bit into my red ceiling and smiled, I kept on thinking and imaging some things. It as Friday, I never knew in Saudi Arabia Friday is the weekend. I got up looked at the mirror, my hair was a mess and my face was yellow, I just smiled to myself, cause I remember once Frank made fun of how I looked :’). 

I went and took a shower, wanting the hot water to wash away all that hair spray and extra mascara that smudged since I slept in it. Annie and I were playing with makeup that’s why , haha, she made me look like a ghost :’).. After 10 mins of showering, I got out and decided to wear:

 

I am the kind of girl who likes getting dressed from the beginning of the day in something comfy and comfortable but still nice. My family is the most randomest people ever, people come visit us and I don’t even know so I end up sitting with them in my pjs that’s why I get dressed before I leave my room. And im at home, no one is going to tell me anything like my shorts are too short ;).

I braided my hair into a loose braid and applied a little mascara and chapstick and went downstairs.

 

I said good morning to my parents then opened the fridge got nutella out and started eating it.  My brother, Mesh3al was having breakfast, he is 20 years old, he's older than i am. He is not that close to me but we are fine i guess.


I sat with Mesh3al and we decided to chat..

Mesh3al: Haaa ? Hows school?


Clara: Its fine :)


Mesh3al: How are you doing in it ?


Clara: Im doing fine


Mesh3al: Clara dont finish the nutella you fatass ! *joking around*


Clara:  Mesh3al, go die :)


Mesh3al: Look your face is too chubby stop eating!


Mesh3al is hot, he has a very mascular body, all my friends back in America tried to hit on him.


Clara: Aha go die please !


Mesh3al: You repeated that twice *he laughed*



Clara: Its how bad i want you to die! =D

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After hours we went out with the family then came back i went to bed directly, i was excited for school i dont know why =)).




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In school..


I was going to class when this boy called Abdallah, he is with me in class. He falied a year , hes tall , fat, but very nice.


Abdallah: Ohh you look so pretty today, Clara :D


Clara: Thankyou! *i blushed so much!!*


Abdallah: Tst7een ?


Clara: Ana ? Shda3waaa, no wayyy !


Abdallah: Then why is your face so red?



Clara: Kaifaa shtaby feeh int ? *i laughed and walked away*



It was too embarrassing to stand there and see Abdallah giving me comments !


I went to the class and sat at the back of the class, Noor infront of me, cause we always sit and giggle together. There was an empty seat next to me, Abdallah came and sat there and smiled to me, i smiled back.



Abdallah: I love your smile !



WOWWWW, WHATS UP WITH HIM?!




Clara: Thankyou? *red cheeks again*



Abdallah: Hahaha your cheeks are red again!



Clara: Yeah, its hot. *i got pissed how he kept mentioning it*



Abdallah: Its fine you look even cuter when you are shy !



Clara: Hahaha thanks i guess ?



Noor gave me a look like , WHATS HAPPENING??? And she laughed!



I whispered "I DONT KNOW" and laughed it out !!!




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The rest of the day Abdallah would keep on giving me complements gosh, what the fuck was up with this dude? If Frank finds out he'll murder me and him!


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Weeeks passed and Abdallah is still the same, one day in Math class he was sitting next to me again :) !!!


I was talking to Noor and Dana about flowers and some other random things, when Abdallah pokes me and goes like...



Abdallah: Ill get you a rose !


Clara: Ha ? Why?! I wont take it anyways *i laughed wanting to make it less awkward*



Like what the hell?!!! He's listening to our convos and wants to give me flowers now?!



Abdallah: Why not?!



TRINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG.



Gosh, the bell! Thank God ! But Abdallah was still looking at me wonderingly wanting me to answer ! I waited for Noor and Dana to leave then i looked at him and said



Clara: Cause i have a boyfriend !







 

 

Not Everyone..

Not Everyone is going to love you..

Not Everyone is going to understand you..

Not Everyone will find you beautiful..

Not Everyone will believe in you...

Not Everyone will look at you the way you look at yourself..

Not Everyone will be friendly, or real with you..


Not Everyone is going to see the pretty soul you have..

Not Everyone will find you good enough..

Some might even find you more than good enough..



Not Everyone.... </3.



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Who Am I ? Ch.3

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My heart was hitting my chest very quick, i know she wont say he's cheating on me, i trust him and i know he loves me...


Annie: Frank is...


Clara: Annie you scared the creeps out of me, what happened?


Annie: He's missing you HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH ! You should've seen the look on your face! *and she laughed so hard*


Clara: ANNNIEEEEEEE I HATE YOU :@ *i jumped on her and started hitting her "playfully"*


After we were done we kept on laughing =)).

We gossiped about everything =))! I love Annie :')

We watched a movie called "Wild Hogs" , it was very funny!

Annie decided to sleep over so we could swim tomorrow morning or go out.



At like 12 we both drifted to sleep after chatting, eating, drinking and well talking about Frankie :')<3.


Next morning, we woke up and wore our bikini's. The pool is in my house so we could wear whatever we like.

 Annie's bikini.

 My bikini.

 

 

 

 

 

We kept on laughing and jumping and doing whateevr funky things you think offf :')!

 

After a couple of hours it was 3 we got out of the pool and went to take our cozy showers so we could go out to the mall.

 

 

 

Our Outfits:

 

 

 

I wore this.

Annie wore this.

 

 

 

 

I thought we looked pretty, specially with that glow cause we tanned. I added thick mascara and pink plumed lips, and a little blusher.

 

 

 

 

 

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We went to "Riyadh Gallery" it was an interesting mall. It was fun i guess. We shopped alot, and ate and watched a movie. Then my phone vibrated, i was added to my class's BBM group.

I accepted.



They all chatted with me, it was fun i guess. Then i got a BBm request from "Zaid". I didnt know who that was so i just accepted.



Zaid: Heey (:


Clara: Hi ?


Zaid: Its me Zaid :D


Clara: Who?


Zaid: I sit next to you in Math class ;p


Clara: Oh.. I dont remember ...


Zaid: Uhm, its fine..


Clara: Anyways , Bye :)


And i deleted him before he could say anything! I didnt want any guys on my list, its bad enough they have my BB pin <.< !


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We went home, had dinner and then Annie left , then i drifted to sleep :')<3
 

Who Am I ? Ch.2

BEEP BEEP BEEP.

Ughh, i thought to myself, that was my alarm. I need to get up and go to Hell (school). I pressed on "Snooze" and went back to bed. After a while, my mother came "CLARA ! YOU ARE STILL NOT UP?! C'MON THE BUS IS GOING TO LEAVE!". I got up, ran to the bathroom, brushed my teeth, washed my face, and then wore my uniform. I stood infront of the mirror, i had puffy eyes from crying, i added a little blush, curled my lashes applied a coat of mascara and transparent Labello. I apply mascara for confidence, i feel better when i have mascara on. I left my hair down, since my hair is wavy naturaly i just pined back my bangs, grabbed my bag and ran to the bus.


In the bus, i opened my BB and texted Frank. He already sent me :Good Morning<3, How are you?<3. Yes, there is time difference, but he wakes up just to say Gm and goes back to sleep :'). We talked for 30 mins, then i reached school. Phones arent allowed in schools, so i had to say bye.


I went to class, i know a couple of girls out of my class, i said Hi hugged them then went to my Homeroom class.

Dana: Oh Hi Clara *she smiled* You look like you just woke up *laughs*


Aha, why did you have to say that infront of everyone? :)


Clara: Hi *fake smile* Hahaha, cause i really did just wake up.


I grabbed a chair and sat next to her, but Dana was giving me mean comments that i didnt get. She was nice what happened?

A girl came and sit with us, Dana gave me her back and sat with Amal, and i was sitting there all alone, just hearing laughs all around the class. I put my head on the table and started thinking, and thinking and thinking, tears might have fell but i didnt care, i needed to cry so badly.



The class was done, i wiped my face and went, i noticed that Dana and another girl called Noor noticed i was crying, but i didnt care really.


Noor is a tall girl, has curly black hair, short one, she is really nice, and i hope she doesnt have mean comments like Dana. Noor was lebanese.



It was break, i didnt feel like sitting with anyone, everytime i sit with anyone or talk to anyone, my eyes would get filled with tears, and they'd say "Why are your eyes watery, whats wrong?" Id say "No its probably from the lenses" And try to brush it off.

In that moment i needed Frank so badly, i needed his comfy chest to cry on, i wanted his shoulder to cry on, i missed him.

Anyways, in the last 5 mins of break i went and sat with the class, they were like "Where were you Clara? Are you okay?"


TRINNNNNNNNNNNNNNNG.


The bell saved me from answering, i just ran off to my next class, went and got my book from the locker and sat in class. My eyes kept tearing, then Dana asked me "Clara, Whats wrong?"


Clara: Nothing is *i faked a smile tears kept coming*


Dana: No no Clara tell me


Clara: Its nothing, just please leave me alone


Dana: No tell me


I then collapsed, i put my head on the table and started crying so hard silently not wanting to attract attention though i knew everyone knows i am crying, i put my head up wiped my tears, then a guy who sits next to me called Ahmed asked me "Clara are you okay?" Me: Yeah i am :)


I got up asked for permission to go to the bathroom , i ran off and entered one of the stalls and cried cried cried like there is no tomorrow, when i need to cry i cant keep it in i have to cry. I got up went washed my face, wiped it , then Dana came..


Dana: Whats wrong Clara?


Clara: I am just tired.


Dana: Are you sure?


Clara: Yeah. Does everyone know i am crying?


Dana: Yep.


Clara: Did they say anything?


Dana: No


Clara: Good :) ! I hate people seeing me cry *faked a smile*



We went back to class, i was greatfull that no one said anything, after class Noor and Amal asked me if i was okay, i said yeah.



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I went back home, threw myself on my bed and cried, i needed Frank so badly. I opened my phone and saw that he sent me adorable texts :'(<3


Stuff like : I miss you , i love you, come back to me, baby i need you, your my life, and some other stuff <3<3


I cried more after seeing these messages, i replied back he answered directly. We chatted then he went to bed since he likes naps.


The whole day went fine after that. I had to go to school tomorrow.


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The next day was better i didnt cry, i kind of was happy, i talked to everyone, laughed from my heart and well lived. It wasnt that bad, i know ill get used to it, but you know it takes time :/.


I went home did my regular routine, slept, and thats how it was for the rest of the week.



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It was the weekend finally, Annie was coming from America, i cant wait i swear :').


We went to the Airport and waited for her, she came and thats when we ran and hugged each other. Annie makes me so happy, shes 1 year older than me i love her <3.


We said our Hellos and went home.. <3<3


When we were in my room Annie said..


Annie: Clara, i want to tell you something, but please dont be sad or cry...


Clara: Okay ?


Annie: Frank is.....

Who Am I? -Ch.1

There i was , sitting in one of the chairs in school. My face in my hands, crying silently. I hid my tears perfectly, i learned how to cry slowly too. I faked a smile, and i tried to move on. I keeped crying and crying for mostly the whole class. It was a free class. I was a new girl, it was my third day, the first 2 days i tried my best not to cry, and i didnt. I faked laughs, smiles, and well, happiness. Then i couldnt, i am from the kind of person who , if they need to cry they have too. My new classmates were acctually really nice, but they werent my old friends. They werent my best friend, and i know they wont be.

This is the second time i change schools since we moved here, im in the 10th grade. My name is Clara. I am half Saudi, and half American. I have long/medium brown hair, dark brown eyes, cheeky face, and well, every other character like any human. I have 1 brother, his name is Jamal. We lived in America all my life, i was so happy. But my parents said, we need to come back to Riyadh. I lived in Riyadh for a couple of months when i was a kid. That was it. My parents said we need to be back. My mother turned Muslim el7amdella. She wears the Hijab too. I go to an American School though, a mixed school.


 TRIIIIIIIIIIING.

The bell stopped my train of thoughts, and alarmed me that it was time to wipe my tears and fake a smile. I quickly wiped them, carried my bag and stood up when a girl, Dana, said: "Clara, why are you so quiet? Why didnt you sit with us?" and she smiled. Dana was a really tall girl, who had really long hair, she was boney, and she wore glasses, she was cute, and nice. She was the first one who talked to me on the first day of school. "Oh, i was just tired" I said. I hate it when i have to lie, and fake a smile. But i had too. I faked a smile, held my head up, and well moved on :).



The day passed by. I went back home finally. I had lunch, i know food could change my mood on anything. Since my friend Annie isnt with me anymore, but i could see Annie every weekend cause she used to come to Riyadh every week, her dad is Saudi too. Annie is 1 year older than me, she is the sweetest person ive seen, ive always had best friends before, but like her i didnt find. Many people said we looked alike, haha, i miss her. She has long black hair, a chubby face like mine, dark brown eyes, and well a sexy body but she has a tummy.


I ate then went on my blackberry and texted my baby.


Clara/Life Sucks:):


Baby im back!


Frank/Missing You</3:


I miss you so much, school is horrible without you come back please :(



Frank, is my boyfriend. Or should i say my life, i love him so much, he is so nice, he is as old as i am ! His birthday is before me in 1 week only, i remember on my last birthday he got be a diamond necklace, i met him in America. He is pruely American. But he learned Arabic for me. He's Muslim, he's tall, has black hair, black eyes, and tanned body.



Whenever i talked to him id cry, i miss him so much...

I chatted with him for a while then went to sleep ready to go to Hell tomorrow :)

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