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After a couple of weeks, Sali7 kept giving me rules. He was controlling my life. Not in a good way though, and when we would fight. He would hurt me badly. I would cry all night, i keep telling myself. "He isnt worth it" "Dont cry he probably doesnt mean it". Sali7 apologizes after making me cry but what is the use? He repeats it too. But says i make him angry. I kept telling him, you should control yourself, i wont let you hurt me. Who are you to hurt me? What did i do wrong ? Love you and care? Or give you too much attention? I wont let you hurt me.
Over 5 times, we were about to break up. And one time we actually did for one day, but got back togather the next day. He even told me to stop talking to Abdalla (my cousin). Why? He was jealous. Well, all i did was delete him off BBm but kept him on whatsapp, and when i would see him. I will say hi and everything but not take my ra7a in talking.
Everytime when Sali7 and I fight, I remembered Abdallah. I stopped talking to my cousin, because of a person who kept hurting me over and over again. Sometimes i would whataspp Abdallah.
And one day, i went to my grandmothers house on a Wednesday. Abdalla didnt come to these gatherings for about a month now. He once told me why, it was because, everytime he'd see me, he'd get hurt. He knew about Sali7, but didnt even do anything about it. He was very trustworthy. When i see him, i acctually feel bad, for not talking to him. For someone like, Sali7. Yes yes i love Sali7, but c'mon, Abdallah has been closer with me for a longer time. He barely made me cry. Anways, but this gathering he WAS there. He was there, i couldn't believe it. No, i dont love him, but he was my guy best friend you know. I did regret saying okay to Sali7, when he said dont talk to him, but i was blinded with love. Now when my love for Sali7 went down a bit. My eyes finally could see the light.
The Gathering:
So in this gathering, there was a celebration going on it. I knew it because my girl cousin's were running around, getting cakes, and pepsi's. I tried remembering the family birthday's, My grandma? No. Grandpa? No. Any couisn? No. Mmmm, well, it must be something since Abdallah came. Which also made me kind of hurt, that Abdallah didnt say hi to me. He smiled and turned around. Well, i expected him to do that, since i was very harsh on him. Ufft, i just wish Sali7 is worth it.
After about 2 hours of sitting with all my cousins, all of them were having a blast. But me. I couldnt talk to any of my boy cousins, i was changing, i became very calm. I dont talk to anyone. UFFFF I miss the old happy, cheerful, jumpy, unstable, crazy, immature, person i was =)). Many people asked me why did i change? Oh, and La6ifa was enjoying every moment of me changing. La6eefa is Abdalla's sister if you forgot. She got finally got all the attention she wanted, she was always jealous of how everyone gave me the attention and she didnt have any. So when she finally got it, she was the happiest bitch alive :D.
Anwaaaays, i was saying, after these 2 hours passed. My grandma came out of the "Adult's 9alah", and said, that all of us should go sit with them. So now the Adult's 9ala isnt an adult 9ala anymore ! YAY. We were all sitting on the comfy sofa's i was the only one looking clueless.
Grandma finally speaks up:
Grandma: Allah ydoom hal jam3at <3
Everyone: Ameen
Grandma: Bas hathy ljam3a 3'air sa7 Abood (Abdallah)
Abdallah: Hehehe Ee *then he looked at ME* (i was still clueless.)
Grandma: May God keep us togather even though we wont be seeing you anymore *My grandma has a great fluent english accent*
Wait what? ;o
I spoke up without even noticing..
Me: Why wont we be seeing him? *i spot Abdallah, and the rest of my cousin's looking at me*
Mama: Ohh saa7, Yaroora mat3rf eish 9ayr *she laughs*
Me: Esh 9ayr ? *i fake smile*
Grandma: Abdallah byroo7 y3eesh barra forever w mabyred *her eyes tear up*
Me: Really Abdallah you will? * i faked a smile and my eyes kind off teared up, but all of a sudden i cant see anyone but me and him*
Abdallah: Eee..
Me: Allah ywafgk. E3throny baroo7 l7amam *and i ran out*
I went to the garden, where when i used to feel bad, i would go there with Abdallah and he'd push me on the swing. I got my iPod out of my purse, plugged my headphones in my ears. Got my BB out, and started talking to Sali7. He could make me happy, if he didnt ill just listen to music it helps. Then i could feel someone pushing me. I turn around and found Abdallah.
Me: Abdallah, laish int hny? Go celebrate *i smiled*
Abdallah: Yara, *he came and sat on the swing next to mine* Im gana miss you.
Me: Me 2. * i raised the volume of my song and ignored him*
Abdallah:*he removed my headphones* Yara, i cant stay here and watch you stay with Sali7.
Me: Huh, i got used to it. Second time you run away. Such a coword ! *a tear falls*
Abdallah: *whips tear with his finger* Yara im sorry *he hugs me*
Me: *i just hug back, one second and flashbacks started coming, me nd sali7, me nd him, how sali7 made me cry, how i deserve better, how i' ve been needing a hug like this since forever, my tears didnt stop and all he did was still hug me* Sali7 has been hurting me so much Abdallah *sniffs* Abdallah im very tired of him *sniffs and cries* I love him but i cant handle the tears anymoree *cries*
Abdallah: Shhh please dont cry, you know everything is in your hands, leave him...
Me: But i love him *snifs and cries more,^still hugging him*
Abdallah: Im going to be here for you, i wont leave just stop crying..
Me: You are staying? *sniffs*
Abdallah: I am <3
Me: Thankyou so much *hugs him really tight*
I started telling him every fight and everything me and Sali7 had, i just wanted to tell someone i trust and made sure they'd love me. We were done, we finished the celebration, but then Abdallah announced that he isnt leaving anymore. Everyone was very happy, i went home thinking WOW WHAT A NIGHT.
At night me and Sali7 talked on the phone, for about 5 mins they i said good night im going to sleep, but instead i was thinking. I thought, maybe Abdallah is right, i need to leave him...
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