Why Cant I Live My Life My Way? Ch.50

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After about, 15 mins of running none stop. I didnt even check my phone, i didnt want to talk to anyone in the moment, i just had music running through my mind. It made me relax, if always loved running, but id get really tired usually, weirdly this time i didnt. I had so many things in mind i wanted to think of. I wanted to shout so loudly, i wanted to jump in the sea, i wanted water to calm me down. You know how in movies they have a film of everything they did with there love? I got that. I remembered the moment i talked to him after Khalid gave me my phone back till Johnny Rockets.



We had a past, a long one too. 8 months togather is alot of time, but in these 8 months i just became worse. I became a bitch. I kissed a guy. I am a total bitch.


I am a bitch.

I am a bitch.

I am a bitch.


This sentence repeated itself in my mind, making me cry!! I couldnt run anymore ! I needed a hug, a tight one! I got my phone out, i wanted Hessa. In moments when i am crying i usually started going to Salih, but now i needed Hessa. I couldnt face Salih, or i was going to break up with him im sure.

My phone:

10 Missed Calls from Salih.

3 Missed Calls from Dad.

2 Missed Calls from Mom.

20 Missed Calls from Hessa.


Hessa was the only one i needed right now. I ignored the person who was pinging me, which i had a guess it will be Salih. I called Hessa...



Deeet

Deeet

Hessa: Yaraaaa were are you?!! I am searching for you ?! Esh sar!?!?!!?


Yara: Hessa come to Starbucks, its on the oppisote side of Johnny Rockets.



Hessa: Salih wants to come too


Yara: Come alone!


Hessa: Bas Yaraaa *someone snatched the phone* Salih speaks: Yaraaaaa were are you?! Please !!!


Yara: I cant talk to you right now, bye *i closed the phone*


I entered Starbucks, the cakes, cookies, and mocha's filled my nostrils, i went and asked for water, paid and sat on the table. Hessa comes in after 3 mins..



Hessa: Yara esh sar, esh feeh ? *worried*


Yara: I cant take it anymore, im going to die


Hessa: Why?


Yara: Hessa, i i i *cries* im feeling so guilty! Of everythingggg!


Hessa: Yara its okay! 5ala9 god will forgive you inshallah!


Salih comes in Starbucks, looking around, i bet he was searching for me. Okaaay it was time to start running again...


I quickly got out of the shop, and started running again! I will probably loose so much weight wont i from running so much? I laughed at my sillyness. Yes i do talk to myself! =))


I was getting tired, there was an ally, i quickly hid in it thinking Salih wont find me that way. I then sat on the floor and drank my water bottle, when Salih comes !


Salih: Yara ! Whyy ... aree .... youuu .... running ... from me ? *trying to catch his breath*


Yara: Salih leave me alone please!


Salih: Yara i cant, im sorry im so sorry. I know i wasnt supposed to kiss you, i couldnt control myself, im sorry please forgive me...


Yara: You once kissed my neck, then kissed my lips, what else will you do? I am not like other girls, i wont be happy for getting my first kiss, i feel guilty! I fear God! I cant i cant keep doing this!!


Salih: It wont happen again 5ala9 i promisee!!


Yara: We should break up!


Salih: *he put his hand infront of my mouth and shouted* DONT YOU FUCKING SAY THESE 2 WORDS AGAIN DO YOU UNDERSTAND OR NOT?!!! I CANT LIVE WITHOUT YOU! YOUR MY LIFE!! Youu you cant be serious can you? *he got up and walked away*


Yara: *i couldnt say a word, i just watched him leave..*